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Tuesday, May 12, 2009
I dont know who i can talk to no more. Seems like no one can sympathize with me or understand what this feels like. This.... revolting truth. Why are people here so open?! So.... premature!?! None of you out there. NO ONE. Not one. can understand the feeling i have right now after hearing all this "juicy gossip". So some guy spent a night ALONE with a girl. He was proud of it. so what? HAPPY. SAVOURING IT. Coming back to tell his classmates about it. So maybe a few guys and girls shared a hotel room on a school field trip. So what? Well, I believe that no one actually did anything. And nothing morally wrong happened. But still............ No seriously. I feel disgusted. 反胃. really. truly. Truth is, I was curious. I wanted to know what happened. I didnt want to be left out. But that was a wrong move. I should never have asked. Knowing these stories did not make me feel good. AT ALL. I never used to understand how a few words can cause a physical feeling. Right now I really feel like vomitting. Really. I really really had trouble eating lunch. Why???? Why all this BGR thing?! Suggestive things?! Why do people wanna have sex so much?! Yes, true, people all have sexual desires. But as far as I'm concerned, NO I DONT wanna have sex anytime soon. I dont even want to think about it. Why do people even think about it? Or rather, why do people HERE think about it?! And worse, talk about it IN PUBLIC? SPREAD IT AROUND LIKE PEANUT BUTTER, AFRAID YOU'LL MISS A CORNER OF THE BREAD. It should be something private. Something kept between the two of you. i dont think it should be shared. i can share anything, anything at all but not this. No. I dont understand. But I feel grossed out. You people can never understand what it feels like. Imagine standing amongst a bunch of smokers, and you dont smoke. More importantly, you DONT WANNA SMOKE. But you just have to stand there and endure everyone else smoking. Cos you have nowhere else to go. How does that feel? WHYYYYYYY!!!!!!!! WHY DO PEOPLE DO THIS?! AT THIS AGE?! Well like someone once replied me: Tis is canada.No one cares what you do, and everyone does it. So what. Seriously. SO WHAT IF THIS IS CANANDA!!!!!!! I AM STILL ME!!!! You may corrupt me, feed me this sweet forbidden fruit, but you cannot change what 16 years have instilled into me. You cannot make me do what I dont want to do. Call me old-fashioned, call me dumb, call me hypocritical, call me watever you want. I dont care le. I really dont. I wont say anything. I wont do anything. I ll just be this pole standing amidst the smoke. Ignore me. If you are that kind of a person, then I'm not part of your world. yidan left a note at 4:32 AM ***
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