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Sunday, August 27, 2006
Because they stay by your side no matter what. I agree, bcos u nv know when a friend will just turn against you. But I feel so cold. I seem to have lost so much contact with my family. Where did our nightly stroll go? where did our weekly outings go? They re still there but I aint. Birds leave their nest when they have grown up. Do humans leave home too? Many say yes, they leave and find a new home once they are independent. I really don't like it. I don't like this feeling of growing up. Every night, I ll stay home and rush through the endless pile of PT and hw while my brother and parents go for a walk. Everyday I ll be out of home form 6am till 8pm while they will be home watching TV. Every weekend I ll be out with friends or for school activity while they go out and enjoy themselves. I feel so sick. It's like my brother and my parents form a new family by themselves. A whole new threesome that I m excluded from. I used to go with them for everything. Now I m alone. Are we still a family? Yes. But i feel so neglacted. Next week, I will be missing the family day of my dad's company. I thought it would be a great time to feel like a family again. But now I cant go bcos I have my PSL camp. Don't get me wrong, I want to go for the camp very much and I look forward to it. I just feel it s a pity that I have to miss my family. The week after, I ll miss my MUM's company's family cos of Grading. Isnt it such a conincedence? Pity. They will sign up as a family. Of 3. Where am I? I m out of the picture. I ve grown up. My wings are strong and I m off to build a world of my own. But I miss my family. Right now, they are in the room, playing cards while I'm here doing my Math PT, and blogging. Listen to their laughter, their shouts of joy. I really feel so bad. Soo bad... Lonely fear lights up the sky, Can't help but wonder why, You're so far away. There, you had to take a stand, In some one else's land. Life can be so strange. I wish! We never had to choose, to either win or lose. We could find a way...(We could find a way!) I wish we can. I wish life is simple and innocent, like it used to be. yidan left a note at 9:44 PM ***
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