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Thursday, July 06, 2006
I think I know how Shona felt last week. There is the lump in my throat that I cant swallow down. There is a hole in my heart that I cant fill. There is a sadness that I cant explain. There is a smile that I have to fake for everyone to see. There are the tears that I try to hold back. I am not angry at anyone or anything. I am not angry at myself because I believe I have done my best. (Did I?) I dont feel any regrets but I must say I am terribly disappointed. You wouldnt see me cry, because I will never cry in front of you. You will see me smile and laugh because that is the mask I hide below. I dont know how I managed to get through the rest of the training today. It all seemed like a blurry memory of me stoning and Shin talking. I dont know if you read my blog Shona but I think I understand how you felt. I look at the people happily training for competition and I felt so left out. i have failed to reach my goal and I am left lost. There are so many more things I would love to write about but I dont think I can bear blogging any longer now. So bye... yidan left a note at 8:41 PM ***
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